2nd.2.0472nd.2.047 by Dracowulf
How do we learn to live with ourselves? How do we
learn how to stop trying to be someone else? How
much of who we are is invested in what we do?
Finding strength and finding voice are not easy
things to do. I am trying and searching,
but I am so afraid that if I finally find
and speak, I will discover I have nothing to
say. Then, in panic and bitter agony, I fall
silent and still. Depression is there, waiting,
with open arms. But I don't want to go there.
But I don't want to be here either,
accompanied by so much doubt and abject
uncertainty. Am I a fraud? Am I trying
too hard? Where am I on the page?
YOUI wanted to juxtapose why you cry and why I get teary-eyed, because I wonder how different we are, but in a stark contrast, contrary to my beliefs, I think that I love you, but sometimes it scares me and sometimes I wanna take it back. Mainly because I'm getting tired of hearing you apologize for the way you are, mainly because of your past, but thats what I like about you, YOU, thats what I like, and if you'll let me I'll kiss your tired hands and relieve you of carrying all your baggage and maybe, JUST maybe if you let me into your pants I'll rent a camel to carry all of it.YOU by Ivilance
I'm sorry we go so well together because I know that on some levels you hate who I am. And I'm trying to change myself to be the same person who I am today, making myself better, yet the same, JUST so you can be happier.
I know there's more to you than I know about, but thusfar you've given some pretty juicy nuggets about your past, that ya, sorta scare me, but I treasure them.
Maybe its because we're so differen
LegosI never wanna grow upLegos by Ivilance
Fuck my own car
When I was 5 I had a chauffeur
Her name was Mom and she gave me granola bars and juice
Now I've gotta get it my own self
Fuck responsibilitiy, I wanna play with my legos
And maybe I won't have to grow up
Things were easier when I didn't wanna take a bath
I had two people, my chauffeur and a guy I called "dad"
They knew what was best for me
And that was ok, even though I fought them all the way
But now that I'm older I realized they were making me a better person
Say it with me... dray...coh...wolf...
"The truth is supposed to hurt -
that's how it lets you know you don't got it."
- Brad Stine
"She's not a prude," Gretchen objected. "Just naive. And very smart.
It's an unexpected combination so nobody knows what to make of it.
And, of course, men don't care about smart anyway."
- Karen Joy Fowler, "The View from Venus"
I'd rather be a real someone who nobody notices, than a nobody who's noticed by everyone.